be still my soul

This morning, Facebook Memories reminded me of a post I shared in 2015:

it’s always easiest to step out of the boat and walk on water when the sea is calm.

it’s the high seas that call out your faith.

be still, and know: I AM GOD.

His love never fails.

One part buying a boat, nine parts navigating the high seas.

A year ago, I was heading to Zambia for the first time.

I quit my fulltime job in February last year, when God told me to throw the net out to the other side.

At the time, I had no idea what that meant, or what would happen next, but I was determined to walk in radical obedience.

Stepping out in faith is never without challenges, but it is ALWAYS rewarding in ways I cannot describe in words.

One of the toughest challenges to date, is explaining to other Believers why the call to Missions is the MOST IMPORTANT call you’ll ever respond to.

Being a missionary does not mean you have to leave your vocation, but it does require selfless love, sacrifice, and obedience.

In 49 days, I’ll be back in Zambia for the 3rd time — this time to do AMT with Overland Missions — and I am extremely excited to see how promises and scriptures and prophetic words of more than 10 years come into fruition.

I am already amazed at the great transformation I can see in my life since crossing through the wilderness. Beyond this lies more wilderness, but it contains the Harvest of the Promised Land.

Even when the seas are rough, and when times are uncertain, hold on to the steadfast hope you have in Jesus — He is the anchor for your soul.

In all things, may you have the courage to #runwildlivefree

[Now] we have this [hope] as a sure and steadfast anchor of the soul [it cannot slip and it cannot break down under whoever steps out upon it–a hope] that reaches farther and enters into [the very certainty of the Presence] within the veil, [Lev. 16:2.] ~ Hebrews 6:19

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Lord of the Dance

On 11 February 2018, I spoke to God about my life and job, and the fact that I was stressed and deeply unhappy. I felt that I wasn’t living up to my calling.

The Word He gave me is from John 21:4-7, in which Jesus told the disciples to cast the net out towards the other side of the boat.

I had no idea what this Word meant, but I felt peace to give 24h notice, and resign. I had no plan beyond this.

The next couple of months were a bit in-between, but it lead up to packing up my house and my bags in June (also in obedience) and setting off on the Wilderness x Promised Land Adventure, not yet knowing that I would travel to 6 different countries in 4 months, without a solid income, without a plan or even a backup-plan. I had nothing to go on but a Word from God.

On October 1st, I had a dream in which I was dancing. There was no music, but I danced the message of the Gospel. I had no idea that people were gathering, watching. I simply danced because I had to.

Later that day, we took a boat ride on the Sea of Galilee. I started weeping the minute we cast off. To the left lay Capernaum, and Gaza lay before us. I was thinking how Jesus calmed the sea with a single word, and Holy Spirit reminded me of the Word He gave me in February that year. I was SO overwhelmed by His faithfulness!

OBEDIENCE IS BETTER THAN SACRIFICE.
1 Samuel 15:22

At some point, music started playing. I got up in the front of the boat and started dancing. It was not about performance, but about obedience.

Obedience enables us to #runwildlivefree

It so often happens that we’re held back by the known, and the visible, and even our comfort zone. But, when we trust Him for the harvest, beautiful things happen, and it sets our Spirit free.

May you have courage to step out, and to step in rhythm with the Lord of the Dance!

The Star Breather 

He is faithful to complete the good work He started with in us!
#runwildlivefree

firechronicles

In 2010 I had a dream in which I was standing on a balcony, and I was browsing through the stars in much the same way that you would browse through Google Sky Maps.

I remember that the galaxies I saw before me seemed thick and soupy and I couldn’t resist the urge to dive in. So, I jumped over the balcony rail and I started swimming through the stars.

As I swam, I came to a white house with Grecian pillars framing the front door. I wanted to knock, but before my knuckles could reach the door, a woman with long dark hair opened the door, and she spoke to me in Hebrew, saying “I know why you are here. You have come to find the one they call Yeshua.” And then she invited me inside. Up until this day I have no idea how I was able…

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run boy, run

You know that scene in The Secret Life of Walter Mitty where he skateboards down a winding road into the heart of a soon-to-be volcano struck town? Yeah, that’s what my life has been like for the past month or so.

We are often so focused on all the might-haves or the could-haves, that we forget about the many haves and dids!

2018 has been riddled with challenges — especially family wise, but now, looking back at it, I realize that all through the crappy parts, God was faithful, and I was surrounded by family and loved ones that kept my arms up while I had to fight.

So often when we encounter difficulties it’s easiest to admit defeat and run away. Well, that’s the thought process I go through, anyway.

There’s only one problem though: I am not afraid, and I do not run. Scared? Yes. But afraid? No.

You see, there’s a difference. Fear paralyzes you, keeps you from thinking clearly, from reacting rationally. It intimidates you into believing that you are incapable, not strong enough, worthless, and entirely without hope.

Scripture tells us in 1 John 4:18 that “perfect love casts out fear”, and this of course refers to God’s love — the only perfect love in existence.

So, looking back on the past year, I know that I’ve had to deal with many losses, and had to make a lot of hard, potentially life-altering, decisions. So yes, things have changed and I’m moving on, not because I’m afraid to face the challenges, but because I’m intentionally moving toward the hopes and dreams in my future.

And, yes — maybe that means skateboarding down a long winding road into the heart of the volcano, but if that’s where my destiny’s at — that’s where I’ll be headed.

May 2019 be the year in which you stop running FROM things, and start running TOWARD things.

Blessings and love to you and yours!

run boy, run!

Eli! Eli!

I had just woken up. It was barely light yet.

I remember very clearly having dreamt about Elijah, and Eli serving in the Temple, telling Samuel to go back to bed because it was not he who had called to him.

It had been exactly 1 day since I got my car.

You might not pray about naming your car, and neither did I at first. But, I knew God had spoken to me, so I named my car Eli.

At first, of course, I was sceptical — this wasn’t how I had hoped or imagined it would turn out. My car-situation, I mean.

But I was content, and deeply thankful (as I still am!), knowing that God’s provision is not lacking.

When reading through the Scriptures, ELOHIM and EL ELYON are some of the first Names fo God we come across. The Most High is Creator and Sustainer. He isn’t distant, but PERSONAL, and He calls us into relationship with Him. We were created to live face-to-face in His presence.

As I spent time in prayer that morning, reading through Scripture and studying the meaning of His’ Name, I was reminded that the Most High knows exactly what we need for each season we’re in, whether it’s the desert or the Promised Land, and He provides in abundance — even if that provision looks different from what we expected it to be.

The more I look back over the last couple of years, there more aware I become of the careful ways in which my life was conducted by the Master!

It’s my pleasure to be part of that harmony, even when I can’t see the bigger picture.

As worshippers, our goal is not simply to praise God, but to change the spiritual atmosphere.

We can only do this, when we hear and respond to His call.

#runwildlivefree

This post isn’t about a car, or prophetic dreams as much as it is about God’s faithfulness.

My prayer for you, dear friend, is that you’ll have the courage to respond to his call so that you might be drawn deeper into relationship with Him.

When He calls you into the wilderness, may you have such faith in His’ faithfulness that you’ll leave the comfort of the familiar behind, knowing that God is able to provide, but above all, knowing that he who started the good work within you will bring it to completion.

the Good Shepherd

I recently sat down to review some of the work I’ve been doing over the past few months, and, as most of you will probably know, I’m finishing up a couple work-things as part of the final preparation before leaving for Zambia.

Anyway, as this review came up, I was reminded of my last “working day” of 2018.
I was still in Mahahe, Namibia, and I had 8 hours to go before getting on the bus to Zambia (via Zimbabwe and Botswana — yes, things don’t always go as planned but that’s part of the adventure).

I was writing about John the Baptist, as part of the series of stories I’m doing for Online Church, and consulted my friend Hugo about the Theology of baptism.

Obviously, this is an important subject to write about. I wanted to be extra careful to write the Truth, and to not sound preachy while doing it.

These children’s stories are available free of charge online — that’s a rather large audience, and, of course, I don’t know these kids’ knowledge or background regarding baptism. And, aside from the children, there will be parents watching and hearing and processing this too. How do I write the Truth without involving Theology?

Rather than advising me about what to write, Hugo suggested that we should pray about it. Which we did. And then I wrote what Holy Spirit lead me to say.

This extract from Psalm 23 is part of those writings.

As I look back on the adventures of the last few months, and the craziness of the last few weeks, I’m drawn closer to times of prayer — leaning in to the voice of the Good Shepherd.

Psalm 23 is probably one of the most well-known Scriptures, right along with John 3:16&17, and 1 Corinthians 13, though I doubt we take the time to dissect this passage, and to pray over it.

The past few weeks and months have presented various challenges and difficulties, but as Hugo reminded me, when we face a problem — physical or spiritual — the best thing we can often do about it, is to pray.

David, when he wrote this song, was a young shepherd boy who lived in the field with his flock. There was nothing famous or important about him, but he knew how to hold on to and grasp revelations of Truth.

Just as David was taking care of his sheep, he knew God was also taking care of him.

As a kid who grew up in the lush green that the Northern Drakensberg had to offer, I’ve always imagined Psalm 23 to resemble the rolling foothills of Kwa-Zulu Natal.

However, upon visiting Israel in October 2018, I came to know the bitter truth — the green pastures David spoke of look nothing like the paradise of my childhood.

The reality of the Psalm 23 in which David’s praise-song was set, was rugged and harsh desert landscape, just outside of Palestine.

But, the more I looked around, I noticed that it was in fact not just rocks and desert, and a hot wind that scorched your skin. There is some grass! And the modern-day shepherds, just like the shepherds of old, I’m sure, knew where to find the good stuff.

They weren’t following the flock from rock to rock, but they were walking in the front, with the sheep following them, leading them from one patch of shade to the next, providing shelter and food as they went along.

The Shepherd does not only ward off danger, herding the flock together, He walks in front of the sheep and He shows them the paths of Life. He provides for the body, and for the soul.

The Good Shepherd lays down his life for his sheep.

You see, so often, we have things backwards.

When we’re confronted with difficulty, we should draw near, and not shrink back, from Him who restores our souls and gives us rest.

Is there any better approach to solving a problem than asking the Shepherd who knows all things how to approach it?

In Him we always have more than enough.

This gives me the courage to press forward, even if the future seems unstable and uncharted.

I’ve been living out of a suitcase for 126 days, and each in-between-suitcase-day has been absolutely worth it. I’m looking forward to the suitcase living and planned (and unplanned) adventures that lie ahead!

I don’t know exactly how things will turn out, but I trust the Good Shepherd, and that’s more than enough! All in pursuit of the Kingdom!

#runwildlivefree

Cornelia’ version of Psalm 23

The Lord is my best friend and my shepherd. I always have more than enough. The Lord gives me a place to rest — I am safe in His love. The Lord makes me whole, and gives me new life. He shows me the paths of life, and leads me to walk in His ways. By walking where He guides me, I bring honour to His name.

Lord, when your path takes me through valleys of darkness, I will not let fear be my master because You take care of me. You remain close to me, and lead me all the way!

In your presence, I am strong, and my heart is filled with peace. Your love comforts me, and takes away my fear. I will never be lonely because you are always near!

You anoint me with your Holy Spirit, and you fill me until my heart feels like it will burst!

I am not afraid of the future because Your goodness and love is always with me — all the days of my life.

And afterward, when all my days have been lived, I will enjoy your presence — forever with You!

God watches over us. He takes care of us, and gives us everything we need. In His presence we are safe and fully loved.

“Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Psalm 23:6

Rapid 14

During the summer holiday of 2018, I visited Liezl and Arthur at their home in Livingstone, Zambia. I met this lovely family in 2016, when they were visiting my home church in South Africa.

I remember being excited by the way they spoke about Kingdom and ministry and travel, and we kept in touch.

It was during this visit to Zambia, my second trip to Zambia with in a year, that God started speaking to me about strategic relationships.

Liezl and I, overlooking Rapid 14 on the Zambezi river.

I’ve been involved in short-term missions since 2010, and for two years, I headed Every Nation Faith City‘s local outreach programs. Mid-2018, I felt the release to quit my day-job, so to speak, and set off in obedience to the call God placed on my life.

In May 2019, I’ll be part of a team of missionaries from all over the world, who’ll attend the Advanced Missions Training on Overland Mission’s Logistical base in Livingstone, Zambia.

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I feel that AMT (Advanced Missions Training) is an important steppingstone for the next season, and especially toward my heart for the Gospel in Africa.


Romans 10:14-15  (AMP)
14 But how will people call on Him in whom they have not believed? And how will they believe in Him of whom they have not heard? And how will they hear without a preacher (messenger)?  15 And how will they preach unless they are commissioned  and sent [for that purpose]? Just as it is written  and forever remains written, “How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news of good things!”

You can contribute by partnering with me in prayer, or contributing financially. The total cost for AMT is $6000 (six thousand USD), which includes all expenses such as travel and accommodation for the time I’ll be training in Zambia.

Would you please prayerfully consider making a contribution as partner in the Kingdom?


To join me in Kingdom partnership, you can donate to Overland Missions, and reference my name, or contact me directly, and I’ll provide any information needed.

However God leads you to respond, please know that I have deep appreciation for your partnership and support!


I look forward to sharing more exciting news with you soon!

May you be greatly and abundantly blessed!


Thanks for joining me!

“If you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together.”

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Sunsets in the Kavango are always spectacular, especially when viewed from the top of the water tower in the village. – Mahahe, Namibia

Mid-2018, I felt the call to pack up life as I knew it, and I set off on the adventure now known as run wild live free.

This adventure set off by travelling to Israel, Jordan and Egypt, experiencing the sights and sounds and smells and people of the Promised Land.

Shortly after, my backpack and I made our way to Namibia, where I spent a month in Mahahe, a small village outside of Rundu, on the Kavango River. A 2km walk brings you to the river, where Angola is a stone’s throw away.

My time in Mahahe taught me a lot about rural living, the value of friendships, and challenged me to find new ways in which to reach and impact culture. One of the things I realized, was that there isn’t a one-size-fits-all approach to problem-solving in areas where English was not widely spoken, where Malaria is part of every day life, where famine and poverty are not foreign concepts, and where family is an essential part of community living.

Next, I traveled through Botswana and Zimbabwe to make my second visit to Zambia. Crossing over the Victoria Falls border post is always a treat, and it’s spectacular, even when it’s not the rainy season.

In Zambia, I spent some time visiting friends in Livingstone and connected with Overland Missions. In May this year, I’ll return to Rapid 14, and it’ll be my home until September, when the next part of this amazing journey will kick off.

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Life is always better when done together.

To join me in Kingdom partnership, you can donate to Overland Missions, and reference my name, or contact me directly, and I’ll provide any information needed.

For more information about Language Practice services, you can contact Language Matters.

Thank you for joining me on this adventure!

I look forward to sharing more soon!

May you be greatly and abundantly blessed!

in season

This is from last night, as the sun was setting over the banks of Stonehaven, with droplets clinging to petals after the refreshing rain.

I’ve been making my way through Kings, and the other day I noticed anew how God provides — even if it’s in unconventional ways.

In 1 Kings 17, He provides for Elijah by sending crows to bring him food. Then the stream dries up and Elijah has to walk through the desert for more than 120km — without further mention of food or water.
When he arrives at the widow’s house he insists on being fed, despite the fact that she and her son are starving.

She feeds him and her jars of clay are filled with oil (a pretty cool testimony about provision and anointing, if you ask me) and all seems well.

Until her son becomes ill.
Yet, even in that — God has a plan, and He provides.

As I read this piece from 1 Kings 18 (below), I kept thinking about the water crisis in Cape Town and the extensive drought in our country — and this is the promise: THE LORD WILL SEND RAIN.

Does He have to explain His plans to man?
No.
But in time, He will send rain.

It was now three years since it had rained. A message came to Elijah from the Lord. He said, “Go. Speak to Ahab. Then I will send rain on the land.”

1 Kings 18:1 NIRV